A blink ago I was sitting on the playground
My sunny red hair pulled into two little pigtails
With the ribbons I had begged my mother to tie into my hair
Because I didn't know how to tie a bow yet
A blink ago I was hiding behind my mother's leg
My first time experiencing something new
A brand new world, a school of new people
But it was then, when I peeked around her knee
When my big brown eyes caught sight of my first love
A blink ago I was on the playground again
When my first love told me that he liked me
I ran away screaming "Gross!"
Because I still believed boys had cooties
A blink ago
he held my hand for the first time
And a blink later
he kissed me cheek
A blink ago I was in a hallway
Trying not to be trampled by the giants around me
Suddenly aware I was nothing but a speck
Aware that everyone wasn't each other's best friend
A blink ago I walked the hall with my first boyfriend
Followed by the curses of the witches and dragons behind us
Gripping to that one hand to keep from falling
To keep from believing the demons sweet lies
A blink ago I sat on the bathroom floor
The demons taking my love and peace with them
Leaving me a bloody wreck on the tile
Drowning in a sea I had cried from my pain
A blink ago I was in the cafeteria
When the floor fell from under me
And the only friend I had left was my mother
Who was choking and crying with me
A blink ago I was standing before my demon
In a lace white dress
And my hair, like silk, running down my back
And nothing but love and strength in my heart
And I felt pride that I shined so brightly
That the demon couldn't lay its eyes upon me
Now I stand
For the first time
Not daring to blink as I walked into the last four years
Before I would know who I am meant to be
And I fear if I blinked
The next thing I would see is me following my dreams
meeting my true love
my body veiled in white and roses
taking a little girl to school
With her bright red hair pulled into two little pigtails
And the ribbons she had begged me to tie into her hair
Because she didn't know how to tie a bow yet
I want to break my heart a few more times
I want to cry a few more times
I want to laugh a few more times
And knock my demons to the dust
I want to feel as much as possible
Before I blink
And find myself pale, wrapped in velvet
Floating away
Lovely poem.